We finish our training this Saturday...yikes! It is amazing how quickly this has gone by. Our documentation manager (not sure what she is really titled, so I gave her a new one) let us know we are almost ready for the home study...again, yikes! We have all of the appropriate paperwork done and now we have some appointments, inspections, and mapping to do to close out our process. Through all of these trainings, I have noticed a trend in the people we are with. Those that know what they want seem to be the most comfortable with their spouse, asking questions, and are avid note takers. Those who are unsure on what to do laugh at inappropriate times, barely speak, and doodle instead of preparing for the process about to take place. Those who do not want to be there have not come back. The only thing we have wavered on was what age we wanted to take. After a confirmation from our 7 year old niece, it has been decided we will take anything under 6 (boy, girl, ethnicity).
While my brother would prefer a boy and my dad prefers we not "go outside our race for the sake of the child"; we are comfortable and willing to take whoever God needs us to. We on the other side are praying for our families to have open hearts and minds about who walks in our doors. While on this particular subject, I have been very surprised at how picky some people have been about which child they will allow in their home. More specifically, how many do not want to go out side of their race...wow. I am not sure why they are, but they are. It seems to me if you are there to minister to these kids, race would be the last thing you would take into consideration. I am not judging, just observing. I forget not everyone is as easy-going, accepting, and willing as Dustin and I are. It is not a bad thing on their part, just eye opening for us.
I have found myself wanting to take in these "behavior issued" children more and more each day. These are the ones most likely to set your house on fire. While some are scared or only want, "normal" kids, I want these that have to be closely watched. Mostly because, they are the ones that need the most love. They need you to be there, they need to know they are not destined to be unlovable, they need to be kept out of prison, they need to be adopted, they simply need someone to see the good in them and help bring it out. You see the most reward in these kids. Having this desire stirred in my heart, I have the feeling, God may be trying to tell me something. We will see!
Even though I am beginning to stress about time, cleaning, appointments, engagements, etc. I am taking comfort in my Strength who says I can rest in Him. I am at peace that the One who is asking me to this has my days laid before me. He has given me Dustin to be my partner and knew I could not do this without him. For those women and men who I sat in class with who are doing this alone, I will say a special prayer just for you. For those who do this without Jesus, you will get one too. And, for those couples who are struggling with every bit of this process, you are included as well. I praise God for the opportunity to serve, minister to, and love these precious babies who Satan has stolen so much from. May those children be restored. May God use my home to do this in.
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